Smiles -(n.n)-

Last night, Bro Eric wanted some songs from me. So, we met up and then copied those songs to him. Then suddenly talk about my smile. He said that my smile is the most pretty smile in the church and no one can be able to smile like me. Haha~~...i was quite shocked when heard of it.

Actually he is not the only one say like that. There is one sister too. Both of them saying the same thing. They said that whenever they saw my smile, automatically their worries and sadness will gone. And somemore my smile will let them feel peace and joyful (^^)....

They said that not everyone has a kind of sweet smile like me. It might be a gift things from God.
Besides, my smiles can bless everyone.

Like they said, I hope that my smile really bring warmness to those people around me!....Thank God that He make me so so different than the others.

Let me teach you one way. If you wanted to smile like me, 1st you must have joy (that comes from the Lord) in your heart and happiness. And that's definitely make your smiles more nature and sweet. So, whenever you see or meet up with your friend, smile with them from far away until you guys come close together. Maybe your friends feel weird but just tell them that im happy to see you.

-(n.n)-....Smile yar everyone!!...hehe...

Crybaby Cat?????

Today, suddenly think about my family. I really miss them so so much. The last time I saw them was during CNY. I went back for this celebration for a week only. For me, it is more than enough. I really spent most of my time with my family, just stayed at home together with them. I started to travel around and away from home when i was in 18 years old.

I thought I wont cry at the 1st time left home. I saw my mother cried when I went to NS training and at the airport ( going to study in UKM). Now, when i reflect back, i feel so sad and miss them a lot. Even my sister too, she said she almost cried out too but she tahan it. The moment I looked at them from the other side at waiting room, I really feel their love to me. We kept looking on each others. But then they left earlier and only myself at there. I started to cried too. And my tears came out.

I told myself not too cried so much because later my eyes looked red then later people know i was crying. Actually quite embarrasing lor...hehe...

Sometimes, I will call back home. Mostly i called my sister. But everytime i called back, they seems like dont like me to call them and lazy to pick up my call. I am quite disappointed of them because the way they treated me like that. Somehow i was just thinking do they miss me???...
Apparently, i will still love them n miss them.

I admit la i act like a crying baby. I cried whenever i miss them..and i wanted to tell them that I love you all very very much!!!!.....

Difficulties in my Life

Recently, I have facing a lot of difficulties in my presences life. And I know that I need to deal with it to overcome it.

1. Speaking English.
My english is extremely weak and worst. Ya, I can speak n write but all are wrong and many mistakes come out. I hate myself why i am not like others people that able can speak English.
I am a slow learner. Eventhough I listen and watch english drama or movie a lot, but i still cant learn anything from it. SAD sad sad......

2. communication
Everyone knows that i am a quiet person and dont talk so much around the people. People need to come to me and approach me 1st be4 I talk to them. I am really really passive. That's why i am not good in socialize with everyone.

To be continued......haha..

My Experience

Almost 20 years i have being living in this earth. First 18 years at my hometown with my beloved family, 1 years in Labuan and and the coming year is in West Malaysia until now still at here. I had a dream before.

When i first saw my big sister walked down from the airoplane as she flied from Kuching and was having uni holiday , i really feel envy and impressed that she got the chance to sit airoplane. So, I told myself i want to be like her too. I want sit flight and I want go to West Malaysia as i dreamed for it.

Eventually, my dream comes true. My 1st experience was on 2007 by Airasia from Sibu to KL. I was been selected to join NS in Millennium Camp in SElangor. Finally i had that golden chance came to W.M as so long i wanted for. I had been there for almost 2 months and i didnt finish my training as I have been offered to study in Labuan Matriculation College.

After 1 year studied in Labuan, then i continue my journey and come to UKM...You know, UKM is my 1st choice and i really get it...HaHa..I got more opportunities to sit flight lor ( this is what i thought b4 coming here)...

But now i totally feel bad everytime sit airoplane. The most awful thing is waiting the boarding time at LCCT is so so tired and bored if you are alone. Carrying the luggage n the heavy laptop are really tiring. I had once waiting for 5 or 6 hours alone at LCCT there. Man~...wanna cried and gone crazy..Plus, had to sit one and the half hour journey to reach Sibu..Feel a little deezy and boring inside the plane..

I always chose the sit beside the window. But not everytime can get it if come in late. Sometimes I will look at the scenery outside there. I saw big clouds and deep blue sky when it came to higher n higher...I was wondering why dont see any bird fly through ge..????...haha...

Unbelievable!!!

Last saturday was the day that i was waiting for so long d. That morning wake up on 7am because

that day's training started at 8am. Usually wake up early then this time. After that, our training

started and that day had ujian kawad for our skuad. So, everyone need to come out and stand in

front and give command to our skuad. Wow, you know, this is very challenging. Shout out loudly

in front on people was not the thing that i will do but this is a test!!! Oh my God, i was thinking

this time i really need to breakthrough my life. Take up this challenges and go for it. I really pray

to God and ask HIM to lead me during the test. Hehe.....know what??? God really did. HE did!!!!!

When my name been called out, i was confidently march out and stand in front of them without

any fear and nervous, started to give command. I really can feel God's presence and his leading

at that time. God let me have the confidence and brave to do it. And I had done quite well for

this test. Thank God for all this. It was so unbelievable that I had done this in my life and this is

not usually what a girl can do. What a good experience...wahaha...