LOST

Recently, I am watching a English Drama Series 'LOST'. I am trying to catch up with this drama ever since i watched from season 1. The reason why i like this drama is because the storyline is good and unpredictable sometimes. One day, when i was watching one of those episodes, suddenly, i felt something....

I felt the LOST.....I felt that myself have LOST...on that moment, my tears dropped down...I was upset and keep thinking about GOD, telling HIM that Im totally LOST!!! How!!!.....

Things become worst from time to time. I got into a lot of circumstances and its all happened just because of my immaturity. At that period of time, Im was totally overwhelmed by all those matters. I know im big enough to settle all the problems by myself. But, sometimes I really need the help from others. Everytime I shared my problems is because I hope that they will give me some advise or encouragement. Sadly, I ought to accept the fact that things that happened never as what I expected.

There is up and down in our life..and that's what we called it "life"....I have to accept that this is the reality of life..

Im back =)

Huu....it has been a long period that i didn't open this blog..busy somehow =p....During last few months, a lot of things happened in my life. One of it was a mistake that i ever make in my whole life. I was a little bit regret now but LIFE STILL HAS TO KEEP GOING.

I cannot look back again. I know I cannot stop at the middle of my life. And it is the time to grow more mature especially in thinking. But sometimes I really don't know how to think maturely. Hmm, never mind, it will be another topic of mine...

So, just wanna say that i will post my blog once a week whenever i free. Actually I got a lot of free time =P. There are many more true story that I gonna posted soon and i will make my blog more interesting. So see yah =).........

Blessed

Morning Exercise

1 May, this morning, as I promised to join sport CG at UKM field, I wake up 6:30am and get ready myself then jogging from my college to the place. It is not too far and not to near. But still need a few minutes to reach my destination. There was 1 thing I found that the morning air is so freshing yet cold. It is nice jogging early in the morning before the hot sun is coming out and waken up everybody from their comfort bed.

Along the way, I can hear the insect's sound and saw mongkeys were hanging around the trees. But I didn't look at them. I just pretend nothing was there and pass through it as I was afraid that they will come by and attack me.

When I reached there, I saw nobody was there. But I didn't think too much of it so I keep on waiting and waiting. Unfortunately, they still haven't show out. So, I sent a message to Alice and another sister as well asked them when were they now.

You know what was happening?....

The Sport CG was started at 8am and nobody was informed me about the time that has changed from 7 to 8. I was quite disappointed because she forgot to inform me that there had a changes on time. However, I forgive this sister and I knew that she wasn't do it without intention. Thank God that I have this forgiveness heart to accept her apologies and didnt ruin our relationship.

After that, though nothing I can do while waiting the time come, as a result I ran to Stadium UKM and had a few rounds over there. Then, I met Tony over there too. We had a few talks. We talked about our time period in KML (Labuan Matricualtion College). After finished jogging, I took off and he went back to his own college.

8:20am, I went back again to the field but still...didn't see any1 there. And i waited till they came. Only 7 sisters including myself were playing captain ball. Before we started, I had been asked to lead them in warming up. Then after that our game started.

3 persons in a team. Means only 6 persons were playing captain ball yet there was suppose to be more than that. However, we manage to make the game fun. All of us enjoyed compete together. Luckily there was nobody get injured and guess what............ my team won!!!....haha....
We managed to beat them up by 8:5.

By that time I realised that actually i am quite a good hand in sports..haha...( Thick face) Just I seldom participate on those sports. After that, we had some sharing about how's our life recently and then went to take breakfast while waiting for brother came by to fetch us back to our respective college.

Smiles -(n.n)-

Last night, Bro Eric wanted some songs from me. So, we met up and then copied those songs to him. Then suddenly talk about my smile. He said that my smile is the most pretty smile in the church and no one can be able to smile like me. Haha~~...i was quite shocked when heard of it.

Actually he is not the only one say like that. There is one sister too. Both of them saying the same thing. They said that whenever they saw my smile, automatically their worries and sadness will gone. And somemore my smile will let them feel peace and joyful (^^)....

They said that not everyone has a kind of sweet smile like me. It might be a gift things from God.
Besides, my smiles can bless everyone.

Like they said, I hope that my smile really bring warmness to those people around me!....Thank God that He make me so so different than the others.

Let me teach you one way. If you wanted to smile like me, 1st you must have joy (that comes from the Lord) in your heart and happiness. And that's definitely make your smiles more nature and sweet. So, whenever you see or meet up with your friend, smile with them from far away until you guys come close together. Maybe your friends feel weird but just tell them that im happy to see you.

-(n.n)-....Smile yar everyone!!...hehe...

Crybaby Cat?????

Today, suddenly think about my family. I really miss them so so much. The last time I saw them was during CNY. I went back for this celebration for a week only. For me, it is more than enough. I really spent most of my time with my family, just stayed at home together with them. I started to travel around and away from home when i was in 18 years old.

I thought I wont cry at the 1st time left home. I saw my mother cried when I went to NS training and at the airport ( going to study in UKM). Now, when i reflect back, i feel so sad and miss them a lot. Even my sister too, she said she almost cried out too but she tahan it. The moment I looked at them from the other side at waiting room, I really feel their love to me. We kept looking on each others. But then they left earlier and only myself at there. I started to cried too. And my tears came out.

I told myself not too cried so much because later my eyes looked red then later people know i was crying. Actually quite embarrasing lor...hehe...

Sometimes, I will call back home. Mostly i called my sister. But everytime i called back, they seems like dont like me to call them and lazy to pick up my call. I am quite disappointed of them because the way they treated me like that. Somehow i was just thinking do they miss me???...
Apparently, i will still love them n miss them.

I admit la i act like a crying baby. I cried whenever i miss them..and i wanted to tell them that I love you all very very much!!!!.....

Difficulties in my Life

Recently, I have facing a lot of difficulties in my presences life. And I know that I need to deal with it to overcome it.

1. Speaking English.
My english is extremely weak and worst. Ya, I can speak n write but all are wrong and many mistakes come out. I hate myself why i am not like others people that able can speak English.
I am a slow learner. Eventhough I listen and watch english drama or movie a lot, but i still cant learn anything from it. SAD sad sad......

2. communication
Everyone knows that i am a quiet person and dont talk so much around the people. People need to come to me and approach me 1st be4 I talk to them. I am really really passive. That's why i am not good in socialize with everyone.

To be continued......haha..