Blessed

Morning Exercise

1 May, this morning, as I promised to join sport CG at UKM field, I wake up 6:30am and get ready myself then jogging from my college to the place. It is not too far and not to near. But still need a few minutes to reach my destination. There was 1 thing I found that the morning air is so freshing yet cold. It is nice jogging early in the morning before the hot sun is coming out and waken up everybody from their comfort bed.

Along the way, I can hear the insect's sound and saw mongkeys were hanging around the trees. But I didn't look at them. I just pretend nothing was there and pass through it as I was afraid that they will come by and attack me.

When I reached there, I saw nobody was there. But I didn't think too much of it so I keep on waiting and waiting. Unfortunately, they still haven't show out. So, I sent a message to Alice and another sister as well asked them when were they now.

You know what was happening?....

The Sport CG was started at 8am and nobody was informed me about the time that has changed from 7 to 8. I was quite disappointed because she forgot to inform me that there had a changes on time. However, I forgive this sister and I knew that she wasn't do it without intention. Thank God that I have this forgiveness heart to accept her apologies and didnt ruin our relationship.

After that, though nothing I can do while waiting the time come, as a result I ran to Stadium UKM and had a few rounds over there. Then, I met Tony over there too. We had a few talks. We talked about our time period in KML (Labuan Matricualtion College). After finished jogging, I took off and he went back to his own college.

8:20am, I went back again to the field but still...didn't see any1 there. And i waited till they came. Only 7 sisters including myself were playing captain ball. Before we started, I had been asked to lead them in warming up. Then after that our game started.

3 persons in a team. Means only 6 persons were playing captain ball yet there was suppose to be more than that. However, we manage to make the game fun. All of us enjoyed compete together. Luckily there was nobody get injured and guess what............ my team won!!!....haha....
We managed to beat them up by 8:5.

By that time I realised that actually i am quite a good hand in sports..haha...( Thick face) Just I seldom participate on those sports. After that, we had some sharing about how's our life recently and then went to take breakfast while waiting for brother came by to fetch us back to our respective college.

Smiles -(n.n)-

Last night, Bro Eric wanted some songs from me. So, we met up and then copied those songs to him. Then suddenly talk about my smile. He said that my smile is the most pretty smile in the church and no one can be able to smile like me. Haha~~...i was quite shocked when heard of it.

Actually he is not the only one say like that. There is one sister too. Both of them saying the same thing. They said that whenever they saw my smile, automatically their worries and sadness will gone. And somemore my smile will let them feel peace and joyful (^^)....

They said that not everyone has a kind of sweet smile like me. It might be a gift things from God.
Besides, my smiles can bless everyone.

Like they said, I hope that my smile really bring warmness to those people around me!....Thank God that He make me so so different than the others.

Let me teach you one way. If you wanted to smile like me, 1st you must have joy (that comes from the Lord) in your heart and happiness. And that's definitely make your smiles more nature and sweet. So, whenever you see or meet up with your friend, smile with them from far away until you guys come close together. Maybe your friends feel weird but just tell them that im happy to see you.

-(n.n)-....Smile yar everyone!!...hehe...

Crybaby Cat?????

Today, suddenly think about my family. I really miss them so so much. The last time I saw them was during CNY. I went back for this celebration for a week only. For me, it is more than enough. I really spent most of my time with my family, just stayed at home together with them. I started to travel around and away from home when i was in 18 years old.

I thought I wont cry at the 1st time left home. I saw my mother cried when I went to NS training and at the airport ( going to study in UKM). Now, when i reflect back, i feel so sad and miss them a lot. Even my sister too, she said she almost cried out too but she tahan it. The moment I looked at them from the other side at waiting room, I really feel their love to me. We kept looking on each others. But then they left earlier and only myself at there. I started to cried too. And my tears came out.

I told myself not too cried so much because later my eyes looked red then later people know i was crying. Actually quite embarrasing lor...hehe...

Sometimes, I will call back home. Mostly i called my sister. But everytime i called back, they seems like dont like me to call them and lazy to pick up my call. I am quite disappointed of them because the way they treated me like that. Somehow i was just thinking do they miss me???...
Apparently, i will still love them n miss them.

I admit la i act like a crying baby. I cried whenever i miss them..and i wanted to tell them that I love you all very very much!!!!.....

Difficulties in my Life

Recently, I have facing a lot of difficulties in my presences life. And I know that I need to deal with it to overcome it.

1. Speaking English.
My english is extremely weak and worst. Ya, I can speak n write but all are wrong and many mistakes come out. I hate myself why i am not like others people that able can speak English.
I am a slow learner. Eventhough I listen and watch english drama or movie a lot, but i still cant learn anything from it. SAD sad sad......

2. communication
Everyone knows that i am a quiet person and dont talk so much around the people. People need to come to me and approach me 1st be4 I talk to them. I am really really passive. That's why i am not good in socialize with everyone.

To be continued......haha..

My Experience

Almost 20 years i have being living in this earth. First 18 years at my hometown with my beloved family, 1 years in Labuan and and the coming year is in West Malaysia until now still at here. I had a dream before.

When i first saw my big sister walked down from the airoplane as she flied from Kuching and was having uni holiday , i really feel envy and impressed that she got the chance to sit airoplane. So, I told myself i want to be like her too. I want sit flight and I want go to West Malaysia as i dreamed for it.

Eventually, my dream comes true. My 1st experience was on 2007 by Airasia from Sibu to KL. I was been selected to join NS in Millennium Camp in SElangor. Finally i had that golden chance came to W.M as so long i wanted for. I had been there for almost 2 months and i didnt finish my training as I have been offered to study in Labuan Matriculation College.

After 1 year studied in Labuan, then i continue my journey and come to UKM...You know, UKM is my 1st choice and i really get it...HaHa..I got more opportunities to sit flight lor ( this is what i thought b4 coming here)...

But now i totally feel bad everytime sit airoplane. The most awful thing is waiting the boarding time at LCCT is so so tired and bored if you are alone. Carrying the luggage n the heavy laptop are really tiring. I had once waiting for 5 or 6 hours alone at LCCT there. Man~...wanna cried and gone crazy..Plus, had to sit one and the half hour journey to reach Sibu..Feel a little deezy and boring inside the plane..

I always chose the sit beside the window. But not everytime can get it if come in late. Sometimes I will look at the scenery outside there. I saw big clouds and deep blue sky when it came to higher n higher...I was wondering why dont see any bird fly through ge..????...haha...

Unbelievable!!!

Last saturday was the day that i was waiting for so long d. That morning wake up on 7am because

that day's training started at 8am. Usually wake up early then this time. After that, our training

started and that day had ujian kawad for our skuad. So, everyone need to come out and stand in

front and give command to our skuad. Wow, you know, this is very challenging. Shout out loudly

in front on people was not the thing that i will do but this is a test!!! Oh my God, i was thinking

this time i really need to breakthrough my life. Take up this challenges and go for it. I really pray

to God and ask HIM to lead me during the test. Hehe.....know what??? God really did. HE did!!!!!

When my name been called out, i was confidently march out and stand in front of them without

any fear and nervous, started to give command. I really can feel God's presence and his leading

at that time. God let me have the confidence and brave to do it. And I had done quite well for

this test. Thank God for all this. It was so unbelievable that I had done this in my life and this is

not usually what a girl can do. What a good experience...wahaha...

Hate doing Group assignment!!

I really hate doing group assignment. There are several situations i dont like when doing group assignment. When we are been asked to do group assignment, i started to think that this time huu.....going to die....

You know, group assignment is about everyone involve themselve to finish the assignment. And you know what, some of the group members just doesnt want to do it because they all lazy. Recently i got this kind of member in my group. I was so mad of him because everytime i asked him to do he didnt do it. Why this kind of people exist in the world. So unfair for others you know! The marks we get equally and the lecturer dont care about what we have done in case we report to him/her that someone didnt do anything in our group work.

Another kind of situations is some member take advantage to choose easier part of the assignment to do. During the group discussion, they quickly take the easier part and then left the difficult part for other members. They dont want to do those difficult parts. We as a group should have team spirit but not taking people's advantages then just let the others deal with it. For this sort of people orh, they will say themselves also got do the assignment even just did small part of it.

Untill now, i just met this two situations so far. I hope it wont happen again for my next assignment.

My Guardian Angel

Sometimes i feel myself very small when standing with the people around me. I am a passive and extremely quiet person that when people are talking to me, i will just look at them or just give them a smile. This is a real me. I don't have any skill or talent in myself. I can't sing, weak in communication skills, lack of wisdom, lack of confidence, cannot speak well in english, slow learner, hard to give idea, and there are still many weakness on me. I always think of myself cannot do great thing for God. I am not like other people which is very talented in some areas. I feel disappointed and sad about myself. I cried a lot this few days. No one knows what i feel and i believe that only God understand my feeling. When people gave some complement about me, what they said were just my good appearance but don't even has any about my talent. Indeed, through it, they let me understand more about my ownself. Maybe i am not the brightness in their eyes, but in GOd's eyes, i am precious to Him. God created everyone very differently and he has his own purpose for doing so. Just yesterday night cute2 Joshua encouraged me about one thing. He said that God will train and build me up. What i just need to do is lay my burden on Him and trust Him faithfully that he can guide, lead, mold, and strengthen me become a powerful christian to influence His people and glorified and expand his kingdom as well. God doesn't care about how talented we are. Because he surely will provide us the skills and he will multiple us with the skills to do his work. He will choose people who has simple faith on him. What he want his our heart of willingness to do his will. God will be my guardian angel along the journey of following Him. I will always stand firmly on God and be a faithful servant to Him.

Light of The World

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you

Chorus:
Here i am to worhship
Here i am to bow down
Here i am to say that you are my God
You 're altogether lovely
Altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all Days oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly you came to earth you created
All for love's sake became poor

Bridge:
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon the cross

I like this song and its lirics. When I first listening to this song, I can feel the spirit of God flow on me. Indeed, i cried out to god and it cause me recalled back all the things that God have done in my life. God! You are the greatest God that i have ever meet and know. Whenever i listen to this song, i will touch by the holy spirit and at that moment, I thank god for everything as along the journey I walk with Him, He keep leading me and transform me from weak to strong from time to time. God has mold me through all the hard time. This song liric is so meaningfull to me. All the sentence has very wonderful meaning and you can feel it with your heart if you really enjoy listening this song and understand the liric from words to words. So, i encourage you if you want to feel god's holy spirit flowing on you, listen to this song and you will surely agree with what i had told you from here.

Do you believe in Horoscope?

You know? Some people, including myself like to view and check out our daily horoscope through newspaper and internet. For myself, i was born in May 2, 1989, so my horoscope is Taurus. But, mostly i will looking for love horoscope and see how was my love life today. Sometimes, it was quite accurate and make me hard to not believe it. And it burn up my curiosity for everything that written for my horoscope. I was wondering was it correct or wrong. Rather than that, i will think and think about it and asking is it true. And some of what the horoscope said was quite correct one. Even that, i know that we shouldn't put our expectation too high and fully believe the horoscope. So, I will just simply read through what the horoscope's talking about then ignore it and let it be. And for me, myself rather believe in god than Horoscope as God is the one who control and plan our life wonderfully. Eventually like that lor...So, do u believe in horoscope?

Shooting Training

Guess who is that? Can u believe that is me? Haha...It was my first time holding M16. We, UKM SUKSIS(Kor Polis Sukarelawan) was having this training in Bentong, Pahang. We started our journey to Bentong and reached PDRM Bentong. After that,we went to Latihan Sasar- place for trainees shooting. Everyone of us have chanced experience it as well. It was fun and full of excitement. Besides, we sat behind there didn't wear ear cover! And the bullets sound like fireworks. It make me almost deaf,could not hear clearly and it took few days to recover back to normal. You know. I am actually quite proud of myself because i never thought that i will join this cocuriculum. Joining this koke isn't that easy as i thought. I need to spend my whole 3 years of every saturday to attend this koke. Every saturday, our activities are marching, attend law class and sport till 7pm. But it will be more fun and exciting in case we got outdoor activities like camping, shooting, and somemore.

My Testimony

Photo up there was taken with Patrick, Kheng siang and also myself. Today CareGroup was very fun and i enjoyed it a lot. Actually today i shared testimony. And i also want to share at here because i want to testify god's goodness that he have done in my life during my 1st semester in UKM. There was a period of time, i felt very depressed and down as i found myself very hard to adopt into this new environment with new friends and new places as i coming far from East Malaysia to study at here. Plus i always homesick and that so i kept myself away from brother and sister whenever they came to me. Everytime they invited me joined their CG and sunday service, i rejected them. Along that time, they did'nt give up on followed up me. I still remembered sometimes Bee ling, Lih qing and other Bethesda household were came to my kolej and visited me. They were so friendly, nice and caring and thats make me feel warm and comfortable whenever with them. So, everytime i saw them, i was so happy. Because of them, i saw that god never give up on me and left me eventhough during that period of time i stop worhship god. I was so touch by god and also bro sis's act, so i decided to commit myself to attend every CG, prayer meeting and sunday service as well. Because of them, i changed a alot and i learnd a lot of things through them. I learn to love each one anothers, appreciate one another and so on. Last but not least, i want to appreciate them for all the things that they had done for me. And God as well that let me join into this group of lovely people and family of god. I believe that along this 3years in ukm, i will have a wonderful time gather around with them. Thank You!

14 Appreciation Cards

Haha...Just finish having my CareGroup at UKM, room 3A512 at 8pm. We are having a great and fun time along the CG. And i like one the session that is writing appreciation cards to each one another. so, there are 13 appreciation cards that i received and i want to share with you here. Some of them write funny funny things to me and some are really encourage me a lot. so, there they are....

'May you continue to grow fruitful in the Lord, and draw nearer to Him, as the time goes by. Jer 29:11' by Jean.

'The Lord will watch over you coming and going, both now and forevermore..Psalm 121:8' by BL.

'STRONG..You will be a strong and nice person. Don't give up!!! Yeah' by Zhong Huo.

'Your presence brings joy to us although you seldom talk.' by Jee Khai.

'We serve the Lord together! Appreciate your sweet heart for God! Sweet : pink colour.' by Cute2 Joshua with Crispy.

'Nice testimony just now...And also nice to meet you!' by unknown.

'Oh..I really can feel that your situation in 1st year sem...Because i also experience before...But now very glad that you found the rely...Nice to meet you.' by Mini.

'Thank you for without you, no one can help us to collect prayer point every week!!! Gambateh, may God bless you in all things. Yeah!! by Boon Huat.

'Hey, Cat, you always strong in the eyes of the God. Continue to be faithful to Him and Im sure you can make the difference..yeah..' by Ming Quan dai go.

'Ah Meow- Thank you for such a great testimony, because i also experience it also last sem. Let your cheerful smile bless others.' by Clement.

'Sheep sheep. Love love you. Appreciate you. Haha..Heard your testimony and it's very very encouraging. May you continue to grow in the Lord.' by Lih Qing( my Shepherd..hehe)

'Yo huu...meow meow meow!(x2) wo you yi zhi xiao mao mi wo chong lai ye bu qi..song from "xiao mao lu"..HeHe! by unknown.

'Mei nu ar...nice to meet you oh..you are a blessing to me from God and i hope that we will stay as best friends!' by Esther Sia.

'Cat-Miao~! Ah Cat very happy to know you. Appreciate you very much because be my friend and sister! Have joy always! Appreciate you be my coursemate for SKPD 1033 also...hahaha!' by Ah pat( Patrick).

So how is it? Haha....

I want to appreciate you all for being my friends..Thank you! Love you all!

Love

Can u see it clearly?Yup,it is a 'LOVE' shape.This was a birthday surprise we showed to Joyce and Veny.We used small candles and light it on then arrange it into love shape.Isn't it beautiful?haha....this is the love from our Lord Jesus Christ that He loves us so much.God's love is definitely different than human's love.God's love is so pure and sweet that will make us feel warm and delightful.Human's love is no longer last.Love can divide into different categories such as love between relationship,friendship,family love and tha last one is god's love.Every single one showing the love in different way and different situation.Have u experience god's love?Why not you take this time to reflect back how god show His abundant love towards you.

MYSELF